every detail of the wedding, including where I stood in photos and where I was seated. Once, when the photographer moved me closer, she stepped in quickly.
“Not so close,” she said. “It ruins the look.”Ethan said nothing.
When I asked if I could invite three women from work who had helped me survive the hardest years of motherhood, Ashley wrinkled her nose.
“This is a very elegant event,” she said. “We don’t want anything tacky.”The women who had held my hand through exhaustion and grief were not good enough for the wedding I was paying for.
Still, I told myself this was temporary. That once the wedding passed, my son would remember who I was to him. Who I had always been.
On the wedding day, I arrived early in a coral dress I had chosen carefully. It made me feel warm. Alive. Visible.
Ethan looked at me once.






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